Knackered.

I really don't like myself right now.
I really don't like a lot of people right now.
(With a few pointed exceptions, who are really there for me when I need a cry.)

I am feeling overwhelmed and upset by a lot of little things, and a few big things, and not all of them are homework related and none of them are going to go away. What makes it worse is that for some reason the contacts at home have been blurred, and I don't feel connected anymore and I don't want to make the effort to try and bridge the gap.

This was never an issue last year, maybe because I could still sympathize with what was going on at home because I had experienced highschool where some of my friends stayed, and those people I left behind were in the same environment or, if they were away at school too, they were going through the same changes as I was and we were connected that way. I've lost contact with several people over the course of the last few months, and saw hardly anyone this summer, which doesn't make anything easier I suppose. But it bothers me. It upsets me. I don't like it much at all.

What a time for me to choose to get maudlin. It's one in the morning, I am in the middle of midterms, and I still have homework coming out of my ears like streamers!

I am going to attempt to sleep now.

current music: Take My Breath Away, Jessica Simpson (unfortunately)